There isn't a manual on how to live your life. There isn't a manual on how to deal with a break-up. How to deal with debt. How to deal with a cheating partner.
There are no set rules you can apply to life.
If I could get a lesson in anything right now, it would be on 'How to handle a divorce'. Correction. How to handle your parents' divorce.
While no divorce papers have been filed yet but I am confident that my parents' marriage is heading towards that direction. About 3 years ago my dad took on a second wife. Like any sane woman, my mum couldn't accept it and for the past 3 years has been trying to get a divorce. While he says he is unhappy with wife no.2, yet his stepkids' twitter and facebook seem to say otherwise.
Maybe he is happy. Maybe being with our family makes him unhappy. It's the truth. And I have to face it.
But how? How do I accept that my parents are no longer married? How can I accept the fact that my father loves another woman who is not my mother? How can I accept the fact my father no longer lives with me? How can I accept that my world (that are my parents) is crumbling? How?
What is right? What is wrong? How long will it take? I'm not my mother but I have to say it, I'm tired. I'm tired of anticipating the divorce. I'm tired of the push and pull. Will they or will they not? I'm so tired. And when the divorce finally happens, I'll be exhausted. But, I must then face the changes. The change in the dynamics of the family. Everything will change. I know it.
All I want to know is .....how do I deal with it? How?
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Sweety, you, like your mom, are a strong woman. You won't let this bring you down, I know it. Always remember that everything happens for a reason. Love you. *BIG HUGS
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